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Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
There is also the bread.  Douse it
        with that sweet golden nectar La Cuite,
        and, ah!  Though some call it, blah,
        lost bread or worse, French bread.
        What's in a name except everything?
        She, the sublime incarnate, homoousion
        not the tepid homoiousian . . . she said,
        take and eat for this is my body, and I
        feasted thereupon, tasting the goddess head,
        down in Amite, Louisiana, as Hurricane
        Gloria blasted the shore.  The surge
        lasted hours, we feared for our lives,
        our vessel stranded in shallow brine.
        Someone asked,  what's our purpose,
        our raison d'être?  I said, privileged
        moments, transitory ecstasy,
        but, so fleeting, you may miss them, 
        so be vigilant, diligent, mindful;
        not necessarily the explosion but an
        inchworm oscillating along a rail,
        its incredulous existence.
        She looked me in my bad eye and I saw.
        We didn't speak much afterwards
        and lost touch, though every so often
        I get inklings of what never was
        and always is.  Call it beatitude.
        The French word for bread is pain.
If you use an electron to observe
        
        particles of equal size or smaller
  
        you must take into account 
  
        the impact of the electron—
  
        for it will change what is observed.
  
        How can the object-in-itself 
  
        ever be known?
  
        As a craftsman must gauge
  
        the thickness of his blade
  
        when cutting a fine strip of molding,
  
        or you, the motes in your vision
  
        when sizing up the beloved.
I thought if I could rearrange the fabled
        brass tacks, hone in on the first firsts,
        the first sine qua non, the first everything,
        the Ur-man or woman, the Ur-event,
        the Ur-whatever, scaling down to the last
        turtle, that ultimate reduction, I might
        simplify this otherwise chaos and disarray,
        I might glean some redemptive, confectionary
        truth, some wishbone of both necessity
        and desire, could lay to rest the whiz,
        the clanging pinballs of tilt, could myself
        lie back on the waterbed atop a shape-shifting
        pillow, pluck a grape or two from the dewy bowl,
        catch a re-run of The umbrellas of Cherbourg
        and proclaim a fundamental, orgasmic ahhh—
        but no such singularity, no ding an sich,
        no primeval philosopher stone, egg, oval
        or jelly bean . . . only the usual razzmatazz,
        sirens blitzing down the boulevards, look!
        someone shot outside Acme Oyster House,
        look!  cartoon safes falling from the sky,
        look!  entropy corporealized as a dead locust
        on the portico where dine the Viceroy
        and his beautiful concubine, him with
        handlebar mustachios, him a cornucopia
        of quarks, and she too, and yet, and yet,
        the quarks not invariant, rather an emergence
        out of them, of something new, unimaginable,
        something not quarks at all, though I thought
        if I could reach those babies, I might sing
        for a while, forever, taste the crème à la crème,
        the soft boulder of cotton candy, the bread
        and the wine. 
The crowds had to part that Mardi Gras day
        when a man costumed as the Berlin Wall
        lumbered up Bourbon toward Canal. We saw 
        this right outside Laffite's Blacksmith Shop.
        He consumed practically the entire street
        and swayed from left to right to keep balanced.
        A troupe of male ballerinas wearing feathered
        jock straps, and that's all they wore, hooted
        behind him, protesting their blockage of passage.
        The streets were so packed we felt suffocated
        and veered off into the Shop for relief
        though it too bulged with bodies, everyone
        festive and drunk, some old dude plunking
        the piano and a crowd of retirees singing along
        to Fats Domino's "I'm Walking to New Orleans."
        But it wasn't Mardi Gras for us. We came here
        to break up after a year of relentless passion,
        so intense we both agreed it would kill us
        to go on. We found a shiny, lacquered table
        in one dark corner, ordered the vodka martinis,
        five each, straight up with olives. 
        After so much time you don't need words.
        We gazed into each other's eyes, yours emerald
        mine more hazel, and our eyes spoke defeat,
        benedictions, one blink in unison, a Sousa
        marching band, the next, Verdi's great dirge.
        Something like this happens everywhere 
        all the time, but abstractions mean 
        nothing until they incarnate into the daggers
        you plunge into each other's hearts.
        The gift had been too much, too extravagant,
        too merciless. We had learned the blessing
        of restraint, unwillingly, of course.
        Eyes now closed, we leaned across the table
        and lip to lip kissed goodbye. And, oh,
        what a kiss it was, a kiss of remembrance
        as well as forgetting, and that kiss assumed
        a life of its own, burst through the roof
        of Lafitte's, scorched the crowds outside,
        zoomed into the atmosphere and exploded
        in some other universe.
Ah!
        Sometimes you've just gotta
        leap into the rubbery jello of words
        that vat of eelish vocabulary
        and get naked, eh?
        Oink plop swish clink yowl brrrrrr
        zap whah grrrr wham meow 'swounds . . .
        because you're one of those monkeys
        who will type out Shakespeare
        in infinite time.
We're in a common distress at La Madeleine
        coffee and pastry shop across from the Place d'Armes
        because one of our cats, Yin, went crazy
        and as we watched the vet insert a lethal needle
        the other cat, Yang, lonely, disappeared.
        So we thought to indulge our grief
        by going out, and here we sit at a table draped
        with checkered oilcloth, surrounded by diners
        who laugh and hoot and devour their pleasures
        with the gusto of those who couldn't care less
        about ordinary misfortune—or to seek
        to anesthetize it—through jubilation, sugar
        and caffeine while dismissing tomorrow
        as too distant or irrelevant to bereave,
        unlike us who believe that true grief
        mandates wallowing.
Cats or dogs or parakeets or that turtle
        Mr. Otis found in the Industrial Canal,
        too paltry, ephemeral,  to jeopardize the mind . . .
        yes, shed a tear and be done with it
        for as we all know, if you don't enjoy the fickle moment, 
        you'll regret your life and its blessings, its bon bons, 
        and wind up like one of Hawthorne's corpses
        beneath the black masks.
But we're sad and cannot sip the now tepid
        café au lait  which won't lift our spirits
        because watching something die has soured
        our appetites and thirst—
        you so dejected, so distraught, so wildly beautiful
        in your lamentation, the emerald pendant
        drooping from your neck, the color of your eyes,
        electric green, greener than green, you, so alive
        pushing the deserts and drink aside, as if
        to cry enough!  I've had it.  I'm done with pets,
        I can't eat.  I need to suffer.
Of course, Yin & Yan were everyday felines
        who lived with us ten and eight years respectively—
        we knew them well and they trusted us absolutely--
        but it's also more than cats, it's about everything,
        the entire sundered, unjust, cruel, transient
        universe that injects its toxic needle at will,
        randomly, even as it bestows paltry treats
        like the cupcakes and mocha java that bewitch 
        some of us into forgetting for a while.
        To so forget is to affirm, the affirmation, illusory—
        yet who wouldn't prefer to rejoice
        unless suffering too, in its twisted, warped way, 
        is the most sublime and sacred of rejoicings?
 Louis Gallo's work has appeared or will shortly appear in Southern Literary Review, Fiction Fix, Glimmer Train, Hollins Critic,, Rattle, Southern Quarterly, Litro, New Orleans Review, Xavier Review, Glass: A Journal of Poetry, Missouri Review, Mississippi Review, Texas Review, Baltimore Review, Pennsylvania Literary Journal, The Ledge, storySouth,  Houston Literary Review, Tampa Review, Raving Dove, The Journal (Ohio), Greensboro Review,and many others.  Chapbooks include The Truth Change, The Abomination of Fascination, Status Updates and The Ten Most Important Questions. He is the founding editor of the now defunct journals, The Barataria Review and Books:  A New Orleans Review.  He teaches at Radford University in Radford, Virginia.
      His work has appeared several times in Offcourse.