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Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
The flag beside the mortuary flutters
          in the summer breeze. Everywhere brick 
          and mortar are crumbling. In the distance
        Mount Penn's long, green flank hovers above the town.       
Though the other features of this hill
          scarcely receive a nod, a pagoda,               
          perched incongruously on the eastern 
          rim, is famous far and wide. A few doors
away one reaches the poet's childhood  
          home. A brass plaque sums up his life 
          in rough detail: Harvard lawyer,
          insurance man, lauded poet, Reading native. 
This house has passed from one MD on to
          the next. Presently a chiropractor's 
          office. A few men tie up the front steps.     
          Clients? Loiterers? Tenants? No need to inquire.      
Nearby a slender alley separates
          the community garden from a teeming 
          playground. Tomatoes, peppers, melons 
          are wedged between neglected yards. 
Across the alley fathers sit, children play, 
          while boisterous teens run up and down  
          and launch their bouncing balls at netless rims. 
          A block away the shelter persists in its abiding labors. 
Corporeal poet, I have read 
          your rootless poems, admired 
          their deft evasion of circumstance. 
          You left this town as if it had never been. 
But the mountain remains. 
          The Oley Valley stays put. 
          Under the aging bridge the brightly hued 
          graffiti simply reads, not once, but twice: 
"Let it burn...Let it burn."              
                                    
A childhood spent in the shtetl's shadow.
          Goyim, a word for an alien world.
          My mother's vigilance was well ingrained—
        you're not to enter those churches, where you will feel
squeamish, rejected, under surveillance.
          But when the monsignor from a block away
          invited me to an ecumenical mass,
        I unhesitatingly consented.
Holy Thursday. Our feet to be washed
          as in The Last Supper. Five from diverse
          faiths were gathered in the rectory for a chaste
        and convivial meal. Lutheran, Muslim,
Mennonite, Greek Orthodox and Jew.
          We shared a bit of our lives, then got up
          to be arrayed at the front of the church. 
        Presented by name and by religion,
we removed one shoe and one sock
          for the monsignor to move down our row
          gently washing and kissing each foot.
        Soon we were free to go.
Outside, a feeling of wholeness, quite new,
          swept over me. The next day on my walk
          I came across a nun who had always 
        declined to meet my gaze; She granted me
an unambiguous smile. The other nuns
          now do the same, and I in turn greet all
          my neighbors, mainly black or Hispanic, as
        our paths converge. One shtetl so like another. 
Seven blocks to the east a synagogue 
          has been sold. It was here I learned the prayers,
          the rituals, fulfilled Bar Mitzvah, and
        later chanted services, still more haftorahs.
In that shul's demise I see myself, and
          know why I sat in that church. Is it loss 
          or gain? Am I better off or am I the same?
			They say that Jesus loves us all, 
          But, the Jewish skeptic thinks:
          the ghettos, this one and that, the old and the new,
        the ghettos—they have not changed.
The middle of the night,
          a shaky jaunt to take a piss,
          fearful of encountering
        epistemological grief.
God help me, I mumble, before
          sliding back into a haze
          of disconcerting angst or
        simple maxillary pressure,
lazy regret, sometimes
          virulent self-loathing. Words
          appear as burning swords or
        maggots swarming in a carcass
just off the highway. The mind-
          body problem absorbs, deters,
          befuddles me. I am not 
          alone and still I am. Oh, I          
          
          promised myself not to sink
          into this modicum of sense.
          I don't want to be understood.
        Duplicitous old age is my lot,
my so-called future. May I still
          redeem myself? be brash like a crow?
          transparent as a harlot? sarcastic
        like a big-time comic? I am tied
to this urban place, though it's sunk
          so far the best remedy may be
          to pretend it never existed.
        Sound reason to pack up and move
away. The time will come when syntax,
          sentence structure, and grammar
          will bother no one. And ideation
        will give up its place at the table.
I live in Reading, Pennsylvania, one of America's poorest cities. That fact colors much of what I write so that there is an underlying protest, but not always an overt one. My poems have appeared in Stepaway Magazine, These Fragile Lilacs, and "Rise," an anthology of work about labor and protest from Vagabond Books. I have a B.A. from Dartmouth College and an M.A. from Columbia, where I worked on a dissertation on Mark Twain's Humor without ever finishing (in itself a joke). I've also appeared in two anthologies (one upcoming) from Studio B in Boyertown, Pa.