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         ISSN 1556-4975
		
Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
I am a collection of two
          hundred and six bones, thirty-two
          trillion cells and eighty-two years.
          If each of those cells has been
          regenerated every seven years,
          I have been 11.7 different people.  
          One wandered among orange trees,
          drinking blossoms. Another
          crushed the leaves of the pepper
          tree as it wept over the path
          and held them to her nose.
          One was a Phi Beta Kappa,
          another diapered and washed
          and drove to the market. One
          made detailed drawings
          of trilobites and foraminifera. 
          One taught students to see, another
          didn't know what she wanted. 
          One cried under an orange tree, 
          another sang along with the radio.
          One learned to play the blues
          on a used Martin guitar.
        One fell in love for the last time.
What I can say—
          Hello. Goodbye. 
          Where are you?
          Why aren't you coming?
          Shall we go to bed? 
        I love you.
Someday English will stick
          in the tangles and angles
          of his brain. Someday, 
          he may speak only Norwegian,
may think he's still at Kirkeveien 100,
          has never left for America,
          has never married me. A continent
          and an ocean will separate us
          even as I hold his hand, listening.
        I'm dreaming of the house that burned.
          Sun slants through blackened rafters,
          the kitchen tap drips.
Books are charred nubs 
          records, ruffled discs.
          But outside, the hills 
  
          have turned again to green, 
          the backyard pool sparkles 
          clear as gin. 
  
          I try a little Mozart on the piano,
          the twisted soundboard tinkles
          like a nickelodeon gone sour. 
  
          Thirty years and thirty miles away, 
          I still dream this music, 
          this house, this family, 
  
          still look for what was lost,
          still try to coax a melody 
        from a charred piano. 
Ruth Bavetta's poems have appeared in Rattle, North American Review, Nimrod, Rhino, Slant, Tar River Review, Atlanta Review and many others, and are included in several anthologies. Her books include Flour, Water, Salt and Fugitive Pigments, (FutureCycle), Embers on the Stairs (Moon Tide), and No Longer at This Address (Aldrich). She loves the light of November afternoons, the music of Stravinsky and the smell of the ocean. She hates pretense, fundamentalism and sauerkraut.