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Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
I hear it every day these days, 
        the sound of my neighbor's chainsaw 
cutting up the dead trees 
          behind his house to burn through the winter. 
It is the sound of a starving animal gorging on its kill. 
          I can see the white smoke 
like the ghosts of the trees swarming from the chimney, 
          coming up for air. 
When I go outside with the trash or to fill the bird feeder with seed, 
          I can smell the smoke. 
It fills my lungs. 
          I choke on it. 
I know full well that these are trees burning, just trees. 
          Nevertheless, I look away. 
 Where the road uncurves between 
   the two cornfields a straight and level 
   three quarters of a mile, I let go 
          of the wheel to open the window, 
          to tap the rhythm out on my lap 
          with my palms. I want the world 
          to hear this harpsichord shout over 
          the trees beyond the fields. I want 
          the world to hear these violins string 
          psalms down the power lines. 
          I want the world to hear these flutes 
          like silver-throated birds returning 
          from the south. Will anything ever 
          make more sense than this? Nothing 
          will ever make more sense than this. 
          Nothing from my mouth or from 
          anyone else's will ever make more 
          sense than this. I pass a father teaching 
          his son to ride his new bicycle. He is 
          teaching him to keep his balance on 
          the narrow wheels, his hands on the bars 
          tight, going fast downhill, the father 
          alongside. Something else has to happen, 
          I think. Something else, now or very soon, 
          has to happen, I think, or a hundred 
          mornings will fall off my life to balance 
        this morning of Bach and of glory. 
The eyes are more than eyes. 
          The smile is less than a smile. 
        The forehead is high and the hair wispy thin. 
The mouth has the shape of cruelty 
          but is not cruel really since it lacks guile. 
          The lips have kissed too much perhaps. 
On his mind is a glass of port wine, 
          an unpaid bill, art, and the stars 
          like salt on the black wound of his heart
The girl who answered the phone 
          at the plumbing contractor said 
          I sounded like a happy person, and she 
          liked that. "Well," I said. "I'm happy 
          that you think I sound like a happy 
          person and are happy about it. But 
          I have to tell you something. I'm not 
          a happy person." "Really?" she said. 
  "How come?" "I'm a poet. Poets 
          aren't happy people," I said. "I don't 
          know any poets, so I couldn't say one 
          way or another. But you do sound happy. 
          You really do." She laughed. "You sound 
          like a happy poet." "That's an oxymoron," 
          I said. "What's an ox-ee-mor-on?" She 
          stopped laughing. "An oxymoron is 
          a phrase with an adjective and a noun 
          that don't agree. They contradict one 
          another," I said. "Jumbo shrimp is a 
          good example." "Or a sad clown? Is that 
          an oxymoron?" "Yes," I said. "That's 
          a really good one." "Well," she said. 
  "I still think you sound like a happy 
          person, or poet or whatever you are. 
          And I still like it." "Me, too," I said. 
          Then I made the appointment for the 
        plumber just like any happy person would. 
J.R. Solonche is the author of 16 books of poetry and coauthor of another. He lives in the Hudson Valley.