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Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
I win some, I lose some. 
        The days? What do they know? 
        They get away from me, 
        But they never belonged to me 
      In the first place & by now 
I have overstayed my welcome 
  & am besieged by riddles. 
        I am the chicken that crossed 
        The road, the man afraid 
        Of his own shadow. That said, 
I place my deepest trust 
        In what I do not know, 
        A universe riddled by sweep 
        Of mystery, tilt of planets 
        Over ruin,  amid vast nets 
Of shining & darkness. Trust 
        The living world to lead us 
        To better versions of ourselves, 
        The snake with its tail 
        In its mouth. Tell me, tell 
Me what has 6 arms, 6 legs, 3 eyes, 
  & sings? The Cyclops trio 
        Singing “I Don’t Know Why 
        I Love You Like I do.” That doubt too 
        Does not possess an answer. Cry 
Me a river over my life passing. 
        The days, pushing & pulling, 
        Know nothing, but when I shed 
        My skin, what shall I answer? 
        Better to have gone naked 
Than clothed in false wool. 
        Mortality is the ultimate riddle. 
  & makes the Sphinx, 
        Destroying both foul & fair, 
        Blush with shame. Man? 
        Solve that riddle If you can.
Flying under the radar of grief,
        I want no medals, deserve none. 
On the television monitors,
        James Cagney stars  
In something or other, 
        Some comic relief, no farce,  
He’s being cashiered
      Out of the Royal Air Force, 
For flying by the seat of his pants.
      No romance.  
Like a lost pilot, all my life
      I have ignored the instruments 
& have flown over  a vast expanse
      Of loveliness. 
Stars are fixed, but nothing in my life
        Can be counted upon
  
To remain. Planets revolve
        Amid indifferent spheres, worlds rife
  
With mysteries entangled with fog
        & rain, wind velocities, 
Fragile mortalies & runways
        Too undependable to land upon.  
I flew by the seat of my pants.
        I have no medals. I deserve none.
Teacher: Well, I wonder what are my chances this morning of interesting you kids in John Keats?
      Duane Jackson: None at all.
        (Dialogue from the movie)      
There are small towns in Texas
  & points beyond
      Where residents make up
Affectionate names for traffic lights.
        Nothing to do
        But get drunk, get laid,  
Listen to car radios play 
        Frankie Lane,
        Drive around all night
Murmuring pick-up lines
        To screw honky-tonk angels.
        Sometimes a heifer will do.      
The Royal movie-theater,
        Plays Red River 
      For what feels like forever,
John Wayne up the ass
        Of high school girls
  & their mothers too.
No more popcorn.
        Night lifts high skirts.
        Nothing to see.
The old Truth/Beauty 
        yadda  yada.
        Daylight is for funerals.
That lucky sonuvabitch!
        He found one way 
        To get outta this cow shit plaza.
There is just so much sleep to go around
  With the bed still warm
  From my wife’s body,
  Pillows piled high & the annoying sound
  Of traffic going somewhere or not.
  Another erratic midnight.
 Don McLean got it right:
  “Bad news on the doorstep.”
  & I got no Chevy either.
  Am I the only person not dreaming?
  In Apartment 8H, right
Below us, some idiot is playing
  First Edition’s 
  “Just Dropped In to See 
  What Condition My Condition Was In.”
The human condition? Bah! Humbug.
   It’s the entire bedrock
  Of a crumbling nation,
Entire oceans of fish 
  Are awash with waking & dreaming.
Oceans too choking to death on plastic.
Louis Phillips' books of poems include How Wide the Meadow (World Audience Publishers), The Domain of Silence, The Domain of Absence: New and Selected Poems 1963-2015 (Pleasure Boat Studio), & Krazy Kat Rag (Light Reprints).