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get down to it 
          and we’re all mostly 
        a conglomerate of quarks
the so far ultimate
          constituents of matter
          (six types stuck inside
          the proton—up, down,
          strange, charm, top
          bottom) 
and each quark births
          an anti-quark,
          each has charge, spin
  & mass
weird, eh?
          the term itself coined
          by James Joyce,
          borrowed by Gell-Mann
so how you doing today
          maybe depends on 
          the condition of your quarks
quark quark quack quack
          sub-microscopic ducks
oh one of my strange antiquarks
          has a sinus condition,
          spins too slow,
          has lost its charm
can’t get a quark naked though
          they’re bound by another
          freaky smear called gluons,
          glue, get it?
fuck this—what’s inside
          a quark, that's what I want
          to know, and how low
          can you go, and why
          go there in the first place
unless to know or unknow
          thyself forever
As I turned my gaze from the muted streetlamps
          and cozy picture windows, from the moon
          fractured by pine boughs, from the sad,
          parked automobiles and blackened, residual
          snow banks, as I turned my gaze inward
          I saw that time had solidified as it passed,
          that the past congealed into a stolid tapestry
          of incidents and emotions, some connected
          by common threads but most not, most
          seemingly isolated from the mosaic
          as if detached iotas, random jigsaw pieces
          which, when assembled, remained chaotic,
          indecipherable, fragments composed
          of fragments, and that nevertheless 
          this now impervious disassembly has led
          up to the present, ephemeral moment 
          during which, for an effervescent instant,
          I stand on the porch at night gazing
          at still another array which fuses precisely
          with the slab behind me as I so gaze.
Not a law firm.
The heavy and the light
          as usual.
          The rose petal
          fluttering onto a plinth—
          beast and beauty,
          wisps of rain misting
          the Great Wall of China.
          That aromatic golden hair
          leftover 
          on my boulderous pillow.
Shortly after the Bang
          when gravity was so pugnacious
          that not even photons could escape
          from the embryonic membrane
          of the universe,
          when naked quarks roamed free
          like rowdy cowpokes,
          when all was dark,
          so black pitch
          that if there had been eyes then
          the blazing obscura
          would have blinded them . . .
          shortly thereafter
          as what was everything
          cooled down a bit and swelled
          into the void, bestowing
          space and time in the process . . .
          shortly thereafter
          light burst out of its tar womb,
          blasting space in every direction,
          the best fireworks ever,
          the first New Year’s Eve,
          zipping at its usual speed
          which meant it bounced off
          one side of the cosmos,
          ricocheted to the other,
          then back again, a frenzied yo-yo. . .
        sounds like “Let there be Light.”
We have attained the speed of light,
          Mano, our essential dream, and thus it seems
          from this angle of lesser dream
          that we still slouch in the commons
          sipping coffee and trying reign in Marx,
          Freud, Kafka, Camus, Dostoevsky—
  “consciousness is a disease.”
          And of course we also notice the girls
          who stand in line with their Cokes, burgers
          and pizza. Because we both know,
          as Yeats knew, that we too would become
          scarecrows upon which not a woman
          casts a glance. I think our straw burned
          aromatically. And look, here’s Cricket,
          the chipper eighteen- year-old 
          —who rushes over
          to inform us, as if to announce 
          the cessation of gravity, “Guess what!
          I just had a hysterectomy!” And off she
          dances, to class, to the cafeteria, to
          some personal Alamo. And there’s 
          the spastic guy, all contorted, hobbling
          along awkwardly, a beauty clinging 
          to his arm—and you crack, “Even he
          has a girlfriend.”
          We never understood what we understood.
          And why did we call each other Mano?
          After you, my dear Mano—nay, my dear
          Mano, après vous.” We sifted through
          the absurdists, the alienated, the Dadaists,
          the surreals, D’s glass palace, Walker’s “War
          is better than any Wednesday.” And,
          poof, an insane abracadabra, the commons
          vanished into history or time or wherever
          things vanish but I think mostly into our minds.
          And we never sang beyond the genius of the sea,
          we merely groped, hoped, strained to grasp
          what they told us and hoped they were lying,
          but knew they weren’t, because it would mean
          nothing that we treasured—our steaming 
          coffee, those girls, the neutron-star-heavy books
          we devoured, none of it meant anything,
          all of it some mangled hallucination
          to offset the ancient echo in our bones—
          Father Zosima rotting, Ilych knocking
          against a ladder, Emma spitting up black bile.
  “The blind man!” she cried and cried and cried.
          So, Mano, let’s get in line and have another cup
          and drink to ourselves and sweep ideas
          under the frayed Sarouk where they will 
          hardly form a hump, being themselves,
          nothing.      
Four volumes of Louis Gallo’s poetry, Archaeology, Scherzo Furiant, Crash and Clearing the Attic, are now available. Why is there Something Rather than Nothing? and Leeway & Advent will be published soon. His work appears in Best Short Fiction 2020. A novella, “The Art Deco Lung,” will soon be published in Storylandia. National Public Radio aired a reading and discussion of his poetry on its “With Good Reason” series (December 2020).His work has appeared or will shortly appear in Wide Awake in the Pelican State (LSU anthology), Southern Literary Review, Fiction Fix, Glimmer Train, Hollins Critic, Rattle, Southern Quarterly, Litro, New Orleans Review, Xavier Review, Glass: A Journal of Poetry, Missouri Review, Mississippi Review, Texas Review, Baltimore Review, Pennsylvania Literary Journal, The Ledge, storySouth, Houston Literary Review, Tampa Review, Raving Dove, The Journal (Ohio), Greensboro Review,and many others. Chapbooks include The Truth Changes, The Abomination of Fascination, Status Updates and The Ten Most Important Questions. He is the founding editor of the now defunct journals, The Barataria Review and Books: A New Orleans Review. His work has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize several times. He is the recipient of an NEA grant for fiction. He teaches at Radford University in Radford, Virginia.