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Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
 My burning hip,
		  your aching neck,
		  my creaky knee,
		  your tender spine.
Now we sleep,
          avoiding pain,                         
          at outposts 
          of our spacious bed—
          each wrapped in ancient
          loneliness.
Once we drowsed
          curled close as pups, your arm
          clasped tight around
          my waist, or face-
          to-face, breathing 
          each other’s breath.
            Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
                      Featured like [her], like [her] with friends possessed...
                  —William Shakespeare
For N. and A.
How young girls struggle with appearances—
          worshipping others’ posts on Instagram,
          while searching their own mirrors in despair,
          always desiring this girl’s hair and that girl’s nose,
          sometimes befriending only those who seem
          equally a “7.” Or a “4.” 
          I want to gather mine in my grandma arms
          to tell them just how lovable they are.
Sweethearts—it’s true, no eyes are immune 
          to sparks and glitter. Even in these late decades
          of my life, irises startle-blue as Newman’s 
          induce shivers. Yet it’s quite impossible
          to summon first impressions of the faces
          of lovers, and friends, even relatives 
          whom we once judged—minus? plus?—when we’ve known
          their owners for years. Their kindness, funniness,
          and open hearts make their features unseeable, 
          changed—
lit by who they have become to us, 
          cherished, because uniquely theirs—like yours.
 I crank the wheels of memory.
          The feel of you seeps in         
          like the homeless mists of the dead
          supposed to rise at night in cemeteries.
          Give me those Grade-B movie chills!
          I’ll make you a more palpable ghost!
          Owe your after-life to me!
Don’t disappear—fickle 
          as tears on the marble cheeks of saints 
          announced in the sleazy tabloids.
          I’ll get high-tech equipment,
          a fish-eye lens, infra-red film,
          I’ll capture the field of force
          around your invisible body,
           I’ll prove, I’ll prove more
than the will to believe,
more than desire,
if I can once catch—
even only startled
by the camera’s flash—
your taking-me-in eyes. 
Judy Kronenfeld’s fifth book of poetry, Groaning and Singing, was published in 2022 by FutureCycle Press. Her previous collections include Bird Flying through the Banquet (FutureCycle, 2017), and Shimmer (WordTech, 2012). Her poems have appeared in Cider Press Review, Cimarron Review, Gyroscope Review, MacQueen’s Quinterly, New Ohio Review, Offcourse, One, Pratik, Rattle, Slant, Valparaiso Poetry Review, Verdad, Your Daily Poem, and other journals, and in more than three dozen anthologies.