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Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
“Do you watch your parents kiss?”
  “Yes, just to see what it’s gonna be like when I actually do it.”
                                                                                     Henry, 8 years-old
It’s such an odd act
      of affection: pressing your mouth
      against another mouth,
      sometimes with aggression,
      trying to eat the other,
      swallow them whole,
      suck them down into your belly
      where they’ll explode inside you
      and you’ll explode inside them
      or
      the little peck on the lips or cheek or forehead,
      more perfunctory than anything,
      like a caress on the shoulder,
      a hand lightly tapping the upper back
      or
      the sudden grab of passion, taken by surprise,
      almost forbidden, biting and pulling
      on the lip until the tongues
      wrestle the bodies onto the floor,
      against any wall.
My grandson watches 
      and learns what he can, marking time, 
      but he’ll never imagine
      how quickly his heart will leap
      in his chest and sing, music echoing
      through his arms and legs,
      with that very first kiss.
It is my 68th spring in this country of doom.
The first six I don’t recall.
      After that, each spring,
      all 62 of them, blend together
      into one messy season with fat robins,
      steady rainfall, the tulips first
      to bloom on the north side
      of the house. The grass sucks
      the green out of the air.
      The trees grow light beards
      made of small buds while sparrows
      and wrens feud over the bird houses.
The wind tastes like a cold beer
      sent over to me from old man winter
      who sits at the bar, winking, downing
      jello-shots like there’s no tomorrow.
      And then spring crawls out of its hole,
      squinting, swearing, picking up a clump 
      of mud, marking 68 on my forehead.
      I stand out here, looking up to the heavens,
      waiting for the storm to come
and wash me clean, God willing, for another year.
In one week, I’m going to my fifty-year
      high school reunion to see friends
    I haven’t seen and don’t recognize anymore.
How did I get this frigging old?
Inside my head, I’m twenty-five or twenty-six
      but then I glance in any mirror—
      long red hair gone, wrinkles everywhere,
      an old man staring back.
At this point, I can get depressed worrying about the end
      or I can smile at that old guy and say cheers,
      let’s make the best of it and celebrate the fact
      that I can play golf, drive at night,
      cook a mean steak out on the grill.
I can kiss my wife’s neck and send a chill
      all the way down. Though it’s none of your business,
      it’s true, we’re still able to rise and fall 
on that fleshy frontier.
Standing alone, gazing out
      at the wet world
      as ships and boats
      drift in and out
      of the bay, coming ashore,
    or not.
Pointing toward heaven
      and hell, we let the wind and rain
      swirl around, crashing
      against us. Life is one
      long walk up the stairs
      and then back down again.
      Speed has no value here.
      Take your time
      both ways.
At night,
      the light burns on,
      circling, looking for travelers,
      beckoning, warning,
      announcing, calling out,
  I’m right here. Look at me, please.
Have you ever seen
      two lighthouses
      standing 
      side-by-side?
Born and raised on the third coast, Michigan, David James has published seven books and has had more than thirty one-act plays produced throughout the country.